Forgotten

Sometimes I feel forgotten abou,t like if I would just disappear it would not bother anyone-now I know my family would miss me and my BFF Ro and of course Brian and the kids. But would anyone else? I am not planning on going anywhere but I am starting to question how important I am in other's lives. Besides the above mentioned people I do not think I would even be a second thought in anyone's head. I always feel like the outsider-always looking in. I struggle to make friends, and yes I have tried. Joined groups and just never "clicked" with anyone or found a BFF. I do not have anyone I can call up and just go do things with, Brian and I do not have any couple friends to hang out with. Makes me feel lonely, like there is something wrong with me. I see others from the same groups pair up and such but I/we are always left behind. I feel like we are good people and I go out of my way to do things for others but feel like no one does that for me/us (besides Roanna and Tim). It sucks feeling like an after thought. It sucks being lonely. It sucks not being able to call someone up and meet them for drinks. It will truely just be Brian and I growing old together...but a little companionship would also be nice.....